If you want something and I truly mean WANT something, then you have to become a force of nature and exercise your will upon the universe until the universe, God, the whole world knows that you aren’t here to play around, and that your will be done and that you are prepared to trust and be patient enough to see it unfold in your favor.
When you make a decision to do something, life has a way of absorbing those vibrations, and as a result, brings about conditions to prepare you for it. You cant see the immediate result but the discomfort and disappointment is exactly what you asked for. When you outlast the prepping period, life will reward you, if you show yourself worthy. Anything in life worth having, comes with a battery of tests to prepare you and to make sure you can handle it.